These last six weeks have gone by so fast! This last week, however, I thought was gonna kick my butt. Writing the first draft for my scientific research paper has been so hard for me. Not from a research aspect, but from a personal aspect. I'm writing about the use of polygraph tests in law enforcement and why they are not normally allowed in court as evidence. It's been really hard for me to keep my personal beliefs and aspects out of it, especially because in my husband and brother in law's murder case, it is our primary piece of evidence along with two witnesses, and we cannot use the polygraph. It's very frustrating for me. Then to top it off, like everyone else, I have my home life to deal with and with four kids ranging in age from 13 to 2, and doing my own personal investigating on the murder case. I recently have found a non profit organization to help me and they have done so much already. We have recently gotten the Governor to put up reward money in our case, which is a huge step, and because my husband was one of the originals in Jaime Escalante's first class of student's at Garfield High School, we are getting in touch with some of the actors to become activists in our case. I guess really we are just trying to put some heat on the DA and the investigators. This is all on top of the letters I have been writing to the State Attorney General and U.S. Attorney General. All this and school is kicking my butt. I guess that's why I ended up so sick this week. UGH!!!! Maybe I ought to slow down a little, but it's been four years too long and I don't ever want my kids to believe that their dad and uncle are just trophies or bragging rights to a cold hearted murderer.